the heartbroken that still exist

 Little did i know..

Somewhere...in my heart...the pain still exist

Yumi cell really did trigger all the tears i had with my last relationship..

i thought this was long forgotten, but....i still cry myself out loud

a closure that i never had

a proposal that i never received

a love that i never felt

..

and for that i have been so scared to fall in love again

Clueless.......

 Hi..

I'm so demotivated right now..

BUT I HAVE TO STUDY FOR THE UPCOMING EXAM NEXT WEEK T___T

i feel like the more I study, the more i get lost...

it actually feels surreal (and overwhelming) too that im now already taking papers..

and...

manage to secure a scholarship also :'> alhamdulillah

it felt a little lonely that i dont have a friend that i'd love to share this good news...

but thats ok...feel like writing it here..

ok....wish me luck for my exam :) 

Annyeong

 Annyeong...

HAAHHAAH omg i could literally die out of boredom if this gonna last until December...

Betul la manusia ni memang tak pernah bersyukur kan, I was super busy since Jan - June like I dont have time to sleep or even think of stupid things....now....I can think all those useless thoughts all day err day. I dont know if this is just a luxury or what but.....I miss being busy!!! T_T 

ok whatever thats not the point HAHAAHAHA i feel like list down all kdrama I have watched so far because I can be pretty forgetful at times. LOL since my kdrama era started during lockdown, so I will list down from there heuheu

1. Crash Landing On You. First ever romance drama that I support the couple to be in love in real life and turns out the BinJin couple is expecting a baby now WOAHHHH love love 8/10!
2. Reply 1988. Was recommended by my best friend. For me, it was a comforting drama, no villain and no climax. Love to see the kids growth and Park Bo Geum? hell yeah!!! Nostalgic OST too. 8/10 
3. Hospital Playlist. It was the same director from Replies series so obviously its gonna be good! For me the beginning of the eps has too many characters introduced which made me super confused, given with their unfamiliar names. But the best squad ever, made me wanting to work at hospital somedays. Loveeee all the OST + live band in each eps??!!  Love love love, 2nd season is so much better because of my WinterGarden couple is having more time in the screen hehehe. Im rewatching it again btw LOL 10000/10!!
4. Reply 1994. It was ok hahahaha I couldnt wait until the end so just find online to get the spoiler HAHAHA just watch because of yeo yon sok oppa xD 6/10 
5. It's Okay to Not Be Okay. Amazing plotline, amazing characters. No further comments 10/10 
6. Hi Bye Mama. OH MY GOD PLEASE WATCHHHH, I CRIED LIKE I JUST LOST A BABY. it has 14 eps and I cried from eps 2 till the end non stop HHAHAHAAH binge watch for 3 days non stop and it was the best thing ever. 10/10
7. Record of Youth. It was ok, watch it for park bo gum only AHAHAHA 7/10
8. Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha. AAAAAA LOVEEEEE best best, just a normal romance kdrama 10/10
9. Another Ms. Oh. Suggested by my friend. To me, this drama wayyy to close to my childhood memories......it made me cried at some scene. 7/10
10. Squid Game. Errrr not my cup of tea but I get it why people hype it up. 6/10
11. 18 Again. OH MY GODDDDDD LOVEEEEEEE. 1000000/10 best OST also!!
12. Oh My Venus. just watch it out of boredom. It was cute 7/10
13. Secret Garden. Suggested by my bestfriend too and.....I can say....I wouldn't trust her recommendation anymore HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
14. Our Beloved Summer. Do I have to put any words? 100000000000/10 !!!! Such a comfort drama to me, amazing OST (i even listening to them now) arrrgghhhhh LOVE LOVE LOVE!!
15. Thirty Nine. Ermm, it was sad on last eps only. Love the friendship but idk their acting are all awkward to me. 5/10 
16. The Sound of Your Heart. Suggested by my sis. hahahahaa funny funny drama with 30 mins per eps. 9/10
17. Forecasting Love & Weather. Normal romance kdrama to me, but love how informative this kdrama can be. Only applicable to korea kut, if it were in my country...lol seems impossible...even a predicted flood also they cannot handle...HAHAHAH nways 8/10
18. Business Proposal. Omg Love love love i never know all the actors but they are so good!!!! 9/10
19. My Liberation Note. hahahahaa it was nice drama la tbh, but sometimes its very slow so good for me to watch before sleep HAHAHAHA 7/10
20. Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo. OMGGGG 100000/10 . I know i am a bit too old for this drama hahahahaha but arrhhhh cuteness overload. Thank you to my friend for suggesting me this kdrama because.....I STRAIGHTAWAY FALL IN LOVE WITH NAM JOO HYUKKKKK AAAAAAA
21. Beauty Inside. Suggested by my coworker. Amazing plot, but it's too flat and expected ending haha 7/10
22. Twenty Five Twenty One. OH MY GOD. THIS GONNA BE MY #1 KDRAMA EVERRRRRR. SUPERRRRR HEARTBREAKING.....I NEVER WATCH ANY DRAMA YANG SEDIH NAK MAMPUS TO THIS LEVEL. HUAAAAAAAAAAAAA 10000000/10 T_T if baek yi jin still single can he marry me up? 
23. Start Up. I watch this because of NJH only hahahaha Han Ji Pyeong is so stupid and slow. Team Nam Do San all the way. 5/10 boring gile pls hahahahahahaa ada oppa oppa handsome sahaja 

Will continue this list from time to time. Till then, byebye

 

March 22

 Hello mellow

As usual, my months are packed with work work and work hahah. the peak period has finally come very real and im not ready for it T.T

anyways, a lot things happened too in March!

got my booster shot yayers! 

been waiting for this quite long time alreadyyy. Alhamdulillah it's my turn hehe

so nak travel mana dulu ni hahahahaha

post effect: sore arm for weeks. omg i didnt know it was that bad!! feel like taking MC hahaa but my work be like "are u kidin me"

my first blood donation experience

I dont have a proper photo to share. but I never had any intention to go for blood donation at all until these reasons came:

I heard it somewhere that blood donation is a pure act of kindness where you are saving someone's life without you know who. and another reason is i hate it when my ex used to flex he has donated more than 10 times. lmao

but overall it was a great experience. might be my new 3 months routine inshaallah.

parents went to the UK for my brother's convocation ceremony

so proud of my brother!!! and my SIL too!! 

but that's not what im gonna talk about. haha this means i stayed alone at home! 

i went to do my facial treatment and went to see dentist. during lunch, i went to eat sushi king, the first and last place i went to see my ex T.T 

I went to sit at the same place we had our last date. little did I know it was the last time im gonna see him in my life.. :( this surely not a great topic to write about..

ok moving on, I tried to cook by myself too..but ....i think everything is just a mess hhahaaha i think i will never be a great cook xD everything tastes terrible omg so bad. shshshshs

won my first ever giveaway!

it was just a boring friday night for me and casually join the live and suddenly won giveaway AHAHAHA lol i got 2 types of their new pads range. 

discover little cute brunch place

so my sister ajak me for a breakfast and intially our plan is to have breakfast at a cafe in Nilai. but it was closed so we went to Putrajaya and discover thiss cute small cafe! uhhh i lovee the ambience, brings back me to NZ days! i loveeee freshly brewed coffee (though it was expensive HAHAA) wish that I know how to make my own one day!

i-City with bestie!

while i was on my way to pick up my friend, saw this lorry terbalik omg so terrific. and turns out it was just terbalik 1 hour before i was there! ya allahhhh it must be traumatic to the victim, nasib baik no one was dead. alhamdulillah

dinner at sopoong the tteobokki was yummmmm!

 thank you bestie, I had so much fun!!! 

assemble my own work desk and chair

I bought a new work desk and chair for the peak period HAAHAHA i just hope it will be a great investment. 

The desk took me about 2.5 hours and chair about 0.5 hour. 

fiuhhhhhh

i didnt take a full photo afte it got done, but here's snippet LOL.

it has shelves which is niceee. oh..the flower has been 1 year already. and am still missing the flower giver </3 lol 

bidding farewell to  my hometown

as the house is officially sold, now its time to say goodbye for good to the home and my hometown. 

found this remark my mum made and apparently im still the same height since 12 y/o lolllllll 

my babygirl had her first Khatam Quran

i dont know when did she grow up so fast T_T im just being so emotional now hahahaha

she looking greaaaatttttt and cute hehee

kdrama updates

HAHAHAHA lmao is this needed?!! but yesss because i finish 4 kdrama lollllsss 

CAN U BELIEVE THAT HAHAAHAHA 

THE MORE STRESS I AM, THE MORE KDRAMA I WILL WATCH. 

hypothesis accepted xD 

i watch Forecasting love & weather, thirty nine, Business proposal, the sound of your heart. 

I LOVEEEE BUSINESS PROPOSAL SOOOO MUCH!!! 

i love them all but BUSINESS PROPOSAL AAHHHHHH 

its just a cliche cheesy cringey dramaa but love itttt!! i have been watching emotional drama for quite some time and i dont need more drama as a life lesson anymore HAHAHAHAh

PLEASE LET ME MEET THE REAL TAEMU hshshshhsshshs IM EVEN LISTENING TO THE OST WHILE TYPING THIS OMG let me breath HAHAHAHAHAHHA

ok bye

its ramadhan now. so ramadhan kareem ~

assalamualaikum.

Feb 2022!

 Assalamualaikum holla molla ~ 

It’s the end of the second month of the year. Alhamdulillah.

I started off the month by the trip to Batu Pahat, Johor! It’s the second time to Johor this year and as usual many good food to try 😋

Sunset by the beach 

Laksa Johor sedapppp gilsssss omg I want to repeat!

First time try mi racun and omg sedap gila? Untuk orang tak makan pedas sedap la hehe

Met this cute tiny tealive kat petrol station haha

Then there’s 2 family events for February.

Ibu turns 58! May Allah bless Ibu always ❤️ Love you Ibu till forever 🥰

My sis & brother in law’s 11th wedding anniversary! MashaAllah may their marriage always full of barakah Amin 💗

And..there’s also bad news in the fam. My sister and her husband (with her in laws family too) got positive covid. My brother and my sister in law too 😭 it’s so heartbreaking to see your family to get tester positive. May Allah always protect us all and grant us good health amin InshaAllah!

Next thing is…jeng jeng jeng I started to go to the gym 😵‍💫 as for now I just run on the treadmill cuz that’s the least thing I could do. I have started to notice that I have been gaining weight quite significant. I have never go beyond 70 but IM 80KGs now OMG CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT 😭 BUT that was not the reason I started to work out! I saw some red patches at the back of my leg and Ibu was suspecting blood clot. So I went to see the doctor and….I don’t know what’s called in english/scientific term but literally urat timbul 😵 I can clearly see the vein omg so scary and the doctor said it was due to my weight. So I have to start control my food intake, exercise regularly and drink plain water more. Hurm..so weird…I haven’t had any bubble tea at all?!!! Where does this fat come from…Then I remember I got consumed some medication for my skin treatment. It somehow linked to my diet cuz I have been eating A LOT ever since I took that medicine..hmm whatever I finished the pills already and now road to 50kg shall we? 🤣😶‍🌫️

I finished a series on Netflix called Inventing Anna! Super cooool, though it was a true story but it’s still scary sometimes to think these elite and rich people…where do they get the money? It’s always fascinating to see rich people talks, discuss, their sense of humour..they are different bubble. And I never ever dream to be part of the bubble haha. Being moderate is more than enough, and different people have different definition of peaceful 🤍

Anyways remember I said I didn’t attend aaplus class last month? I DID GO TO ONE CLASS AND ONE TADARRUS THIS MONTH! Yeyyyyy! And I have such an ugly cry during the class bcs there’s just so many sins that we never think of. It’s true the only Allah is the Greatest and we’re all so small…even our own sins we never know..:(

Also, I went to the office for the first time! It’s super cool and nice. Can’t wait to explore more!

I made it to the department meeting guys ahahahaa so shy! 

That’s all for February! Please pray I will survive for March cuz my schedule is crazy crazy 😭😭😭

I haven’t seen rainbow for a very long time but it’s so pretty 😍 MashaAllah!

Till next time. InshaAllah! Assalamualaikum 😚

Highlight of Jan 2022

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

It's 2022 now....MashaAllah that means I'm turning 24 😰

9 years ago, a 15-year-old me was proudly said "I'm gonna get married at the age of 25!"

Little did she know, her heart was utterly broken and completely destroyed to love someone when she is 23. Short sad story. 

First month of 2022 was pretty much busy with work. Pre-audit is here. Peak period is coming very soon. May Allah ease every steps and may I be able to cope with the pressure very well inshaAllah. 

Let's throwback what happened in January! 

New Year staycation with friends.

It was definitely a much needed short getaway after 2 months of feel like dying hahaha. We booked a room in the hope that could get KLCC view but harapan palsu we could barely see the tower! haha but I had a great time, food and laughs nonetheless. Alhamdulillah. The next day we went to a place to jump around like little kids omg my body felt so so so heavy to the point macam nak pecah kalau melompat! I tried trampoline for the first time and had a very bad knee injury the next few days 😂 

Went to Muar with Fam.

Just 5 of us went for makan-makan. Everything tastes soooooo good! Had a good stay at a resort with a mini zoo! Alhamdulillah. Celebrated my beloved sister birthday too at Melaka on our way back. It was a good time 💖 

I just got to know that each district in Johor got their own flag? Amazing

Wanted to try the limited edition coffee in the cafe and ended up got headache by the fragrance of the coffee flower 😖

Banting my forever hometown

I always go to Banting again to buy some stuff, but I haven't gone to Morib beach for ages and MashaAllah it was so prettyyyyy now! Remind me of Hometown Cha-cha-cha 😜 This place surely brings back so many good memories back then. Birthday celebration, reunion, lepak with friends, and so many more things happened here. But it was all in the past. When I was young, like so young before I left to boarding school in 2014. I could barely remember many people from the past but I hope each of them are doing fine 💓

Extended family gathering

I was the photographer at the gathering. Fuh berhabuk skill sis! It was actually so heartwarming to finally get together with people after endless of lockdown. But..the place was quite bad and 10/10 would not recommend hahahah. 

My love for Reed Diffuser!

I used to be so in love with scented candles but I realised that taking care of the candles is just so much hassle and I am not rajin to light it up every day. Plus, I'm now in a smaller room with bad ventilation. So scented candles might be a big NO for me now haha. Last year, I got a reed diffuser when exchanging gift during family day. It was from my sister hehe and since that I am totally in loveeeee with reed diffuser! Once I run out of it, the room started to have a weird smell and I immediately got a new one. Look, the packaging is also very nice! I know already what to give for someone's birthday/wedding hahahaa. The price was quite reasonable around RM70 - RM80 that lasts for 4-6 weeks.

I signed up for AA plus

Alhamdulillah, this has been a very long dream of mine. Once the Thursday love letter posted that registration is open, I immediately input in my calendar the closing date so I won't miss it. 

But...I don't know what happened to my time management. It seems like I could not commit to attend the live classes? Although I have mark it in my planner but every time I always forgot and just regret the next day. Ya allah..

I want to do better in February inshaAllah although my work schedule might be busier but I will try my best to make time for it inshaAllah!!! Please pray for me.

Tried new local skincare products

This is one of my 2022 goals - to try at least 1 new local skincare brand/products. 

And this month...I tried 2 products! 

First one is Sulfur Spot from Daughters of Malaya. This is first product I tried from DOM and first drying lotion I have ever had. I have used it for 3 days straight but I think my skin does not really like it hahahaha but I will try more later. 

credit google

Second one is HoneyGlo Exfoliant by my favourite brand Kayman! I loveeee scrub since forever but because my skin is Acne-prone, so I rarely got the chance to try physical scrub 😢 but this oneeeee I still use it because it wassss soooooo smooth!!! the beads was very tiny and uhhhh I just love it. Congrats Kayman! 

Our Beloved Summer (Kdrama)

This kdrama I started to watch since last year. But it was finished this year, mid of January. Oh my god... I love Choi Ung so so so so much!!!!!! I know that I fangirl every single kdrama hero, but Choi Ung is the perfect guy that I will pray to Allah that I want someone who is like him. No red flag, just a perfect character that I'd date to marry!! But seems so hard to find one hahaha maybe I should work on myself first so the man of my dream would come in reality hahaha. Love Choi Ung! The OST was so goooood also. I love Drawer - 10 cm huaaaaaaaaaa Christmas Tree is also perfect arghh cannot choose. Just loveeeee the whole drama. Such a comfort drama <3 Best to say that Kdrama is my coping mechanism now hahaha. I cried on the last episode bcs I dont want it to end :( 

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Anyways, that is all recap for this month. Alhamdulillah, it was fine I had great times and bad times too hahah 

Oh yesterday we went to makan-makan with the whole fam!! Korean cuisine!! yumssss I had so much tteobokki but no picture cuz it was so good hahaha Alhamdulillah. 

Till next time inshaAllah. Assalamualaikum.